Am I the only one who feels like life is just a continual cycle. You go from good to real good to going down hill to bad to start looking up again and back to good. I've been in the "good" stages for awhile and now we've hit the bad. I'm just trying hang on waiting for good to come back. I was doing so well- exercising everyday and eating right, then mother nature presented herself with my monthly gift- which normally isn't that bad and without going into detail I will just say that my new birth control makes this monthly occurrence much more painful and unpleasant. All I wanted to do was sit on the couch, watch movies all day long, and eat everything in sight! If that didn't hinder my dieting and training plans enough, my running partner had to bail last week because her knees are acting up. Which is totally not her fault and I hope they heel soon for her, but I was left to find my own will power the last two weeks and it hasn't been easy.
Lucky for me I have a super supportive husband who's encouragement got me through the daily running part, but unfortunately he could not stop me from eating everything in sight. I've never seen myself like this before- I was ravenous and no amount of self-control could contain me. So my diet went to pot, but I'm still on track with my training. But I still feel bad because on top of all of this my patience is non-existent and my poor little boy is having to deal with mommy's grumpy's all week, plus an anniversary present for my husband that I've been working on forever- we're talking hours and hours of work is gone- I think my husband may have messed it up while re-doing all our hard drives and reorganizing our pictures. I'm so upset- I don't even know where to begin to start over. Needless to say- I'm very frustrated this week, we are definitely in the "bad" position of the life cycle. Please hurry up and come back good!!!
I still have only lost 2.5 lbs and my belly actually feels fatter (hopefully that's just the bloating from you know what). I'm stuck- not sure what to do and I'm sure my food rage will not help that. I guess I need to go stricter.
Today so far:
Breakfast: 1/2 organic oatmeal, one slice of 100 %whole wheat toast with a tbsp of almond butter.
Lunch: A tuna sandwich on 100 % W.W. english muffin with tbsp of miracle whip, a few craisins and some lettuce. 2large strawberries and a shared a nectarine with my son.
Snack: handful of unsalted peanuts mixed with a few craisins and 2 tsp of chocolate chips. Tried really hard to stop there, but still feeling ravenous so I had a handful of reduced fat wheat things and one laughing cow cheese wedge - these are awesome so yummy and only 35 calories. Feel like I blew it for snack time though.
Dinner - will be a homemade pizza margarita with a spinach salad. The pizza recipe comes from kraft.com's healthy dish.
I guess if all I eat the rest of the day is dinner- then I'll still be good- but night time is always the worst. Does anyone know why that is?
The munchies always start a war with me after 4 pm.
